Friday, July 14, 2006

Feeling Impatient

I have been amazed throughout the past few months at how calm and patient I have felt regarding this adoption process. I read about people who have to focus all their energy on trying not to bite their nails all the way down, or to keep from pulling all their hair out while they wait for news of an available baby from their agency. And I haven't really been able to identify with these people. Until now.

I don't know what has changed, but the past week has been getting hard for me. Maybe it's because by my calculations, we should be EXTREMELY close to getting our referral. I keep feeling like it could be any day now. Or maybe it's because lately it seems I can't go anywhere or see anyone without them asking, "how is your adoption going?". Or, maybe it's because the last of my pregnant family and friends have just delivered, which only makes sense that now it's MY TURN.

A week from today marks one year since we lost our last pregnancy. I guess I thought I was over the emotion of that time, but judging by the tears on my cheeks, I guess not. I think I was secretly hoping to know of our next child before reaching this milestone.

Anyone know a good Bible verse to help sustain me during the wait?


Dawn said...

Yes, I thes:5:24
this one helps me every day as we wait for our daughter from China.


Evan Lenz said...

Hi Shana,

I have found Psalm 37 to be comforting and hope-inspiring during difficult times.


Shana said...

Thanks for the comments and verses.

Evan, I particularly like verses 4 and 34.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

34 Wait for the LORD
and keep his way.
He will exalt you to inherit the land;
when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.

Dad said...

Those are good ones.

Also, Matt 6:31-34.

And, keep yourself busy...Is your room clean?


Brianna Heldt said...

I'm sorry the wait is getting so hard; you guys have been waiting a long time. (I lost a baby close to two years ago so I can definitely relate. Isn't it weird how emotions can hit when you don't expect them, or when you think they're over? Again I'm so sorry that things are hard right now!)

I don't have a specific verse in mind, but I DO know that the Lord is good and watching over you guys. Keep hanging in there. A child in Ethiopia needs you to be their mommy!

Thankfulmom said...

I don't know if this will speak to you, but I have found peace in Isaiah 58: 10-11. The imagery of fruitfulness is beautiful. May you be like a "watered garden and a spring of water, whose waters do not fail". Blessings while you wait.

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